“I’m thankful to say that my depression doesn’t control my life. The depression that I experienced isn’t with me all of the time. At first it was always there, making it difficult to survive. I would cherish the days when I was able to make little successes.
Success for me at the time was me being able to get up and take a shower, go to work, go to class, do what I needed to do to survive, literally, just to survive. One thing was for sure, no matter what state of mind I was in or what emotional instability I was experiencing, I always knew the Holy Spirit was with me.
I do believe it was the Holy Spirit that gave me the strength most days to be able to make those little successes.
I remember falling in bed every night and saying to myself, “Finally, another day finished with this walking depression.”
I called it walking depression because it’s literally what I was experiencing, walking depression.
Many of us may experience it. We go to our day to day lives and no one around us is aware that we are depressed. We walk around like we are okay and people see us and think we are okay, that we are the most optimistic people ever, not realizing, the second we get home, the second we are alone, the depression comes out.
We are able to muster up just enough strength to cover up our depression; to keep on walking, hence, walking depression.
Sometimes I felt like I was an incubator for depression, and because I knew what society required of me, I was able to walk and go through the motions and do what needed to be done, but that was a long time ago, several years ago.
I’m thankful to say that it doesn’t happen as often. Not nearly as often. Back then it was an everyday thing, but now, just randomly, only when I’m triggered and it only lasts a day or two. So I’m thankful to say that I’ve made a lot of progress.”
Depression is the leading cause for disability in the US today. The prevalence is high, but there is hope.
Deuteronomy 31:8 The LORD Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.
II Corinthians 1:3-4 … Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.